Why do we care so much?
On the drive home from the bar, I worked up many cutesie things to say about how bad I feel. About how much suffering I have put myself through just by being a Michigan fan. But the bottom line is, I just walked out of a bar filled with my friends (not Michigan fans). They genuinely tried to console me like I had lost a loved one. They were actually hurt by how much I was hurt.
I have had time to mill it over. I am an intelligent person with a good job, a loving family, and a lot of opportunities that have been provided to me. I call myself intelligent because of the fact that I feel completely stupid being so dejected over something that I can't control. I honestly feel like a Michigan football addict.
I walked out the front door of the bar without saying anything to anybody. Why do I allow something that is (a) trivial and (b) completely out of my control dictate how my weekend goes? How my fall goes?
I can't continue to be so involved. I can't continue to overanalyze every recruiting visit. Every press conference. Every tweet. In a way, tonight served as a way for me to understand that I have gotten way too close to a concept.
Don't get me wrong. I am still glad that Harbaugh has come home. I am still glad that Michigan has a future again. But I've realized that I have to step back from this. Get some perspective. There are probably other people on here who feel the same way.
Is this the loss that actually forces me to grow up and treat Michigan football as the object that it is? - A fun three hour escape from reality that shouldn't cause me to drop off the face of the map when faced with a little turbulence? I don't see very many well adjusted people that are older than I am that live and die by a box score.
I don't know what the point of this post is. Am I being nihilistic? Am I overreacting? Or is it possible that nearly every one of us on this board is way too tied into something that they cannot change, for better or worse?
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October 17th, 2015 at 10:00 PM ^
"If this is the pros, no way that happens." But then, I thought, "If this is the pros, State kicks a 56 yard field goal on 4th and 19 to take a 24-23 lead, and we never even get to the punt situation." So, do I want botched punts losing games? Or kickers making 55 yard field goals routinely to win games?
October 17th, 2015 at 11:26 PM ^
Miracle in the Meadowlands. Google it if you don't know.
October 17th, 2015 at 11:26 PM ^
Miracle in the Meadowlands. Google it if you don't know.
October 17th, 2015 at 8:35 PM ^
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October 17th, 2015 at 8:38 PM ^
On the whole, it probably isn't worth it. So much time wasted watching a bunch of teenagers run and throw a ball, and they almost always disappoint us.
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October 17th, 2015 at 8:45 PM ^
because they represent us and well i guess its better than when people used to fight wars, joust, and have duels to see whose better
October 17th, 2015 at 8:45 PM ^
Oddly, I'm taking this better than most. We beat Sparty, we just didn't beat Sparty. The team stood up to the bully and had them beat. The future is bright and we are way ahead of schedule. In years past we were non-competetive. This is so much better. Neg me if you want but we are a QB and some skill position help from be a wrecking ball. We just didn't have the pieces to exploit their weaknesses but had them beat anyway.
October 17th, 2015 at 10:57 PM ^
"we are a QB and some skill position help from be a wrecking ball"
Exactly. And it's going to be awesome. And you can say you were there for the whole ride, ups and downs and soul crushing WTF moments.
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because this drama, this current feeling of the world coming to an end, as well as the feeling of the high after a win are replacements for the lack of emotional extremes we see in our fairly mundane lives.
Our bodies are basically massive hormone factories before, during and after these games. It has been suggested quite often that you can get addicted to those hormones. And it's not just happiness, the same applies to pain, aggression, fear. It's the whole damn human experience put together in a package which is all in all far more harmlessly consumed than most other ways of experiencing all that stuff.
6-7 hours ago this message board was drunk on our own hype. People said it's a great day to be alive and what not, victory was assumed. Well, it didn't turn out to be a great day, an OK day or even a mildly annoying day, it turned out to be one of the darkest days of Michigan football history. It's an emotional roller coast ride. You don't just get that anywhere else. You might wanna quit now, but I've said that to myself before, you'll be back. The safety of not caring is also incredibly dull. Let the anger turn into something else!
October 17th, 2015 at 8:49 PM ^
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this is a loss that reminds me why i love college football. We've already won as many games this year as we did last year. Team looks SO much more poised (minus one play) and has so much upward potential. Jim Harbaugh did this in one year with an Iowa QB! Lots to be excited about. Just gives us one more reason to hate on MSU.
October 17th, 2015 at 8:53 PM ^
I'm gonna open up and share something that I really never had to.
I owe my life to Michigan Athletics.
I have depression. It was really severe at one point and I was inches away from committing suicide when I was 15.
It was the memories I had of going to games, the joy of wins and all the love I have for Michigan that kept me from giving up.
Mock me all you want. This is my life and will always be.
October 17th, 2015 at 8:55 PM ^
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October 17th, 2015 at 9:12 PM ^
Hey man. Just a thought. I want to make sure you're cool with that information getting out. Your picture was posted a couple weeks ago and I'm 99.9% sure that you probably know another Michigan fan. If they recognize you and know you, it'll get out.
Maybe you're fine with it, but I just wanted to throw that out there.
October 17th, 2015 at 9:24 PM ^
That's okay. I'm proud of beating depression.
My picture on my twitter so that's cool, too. My profile photo is me as a baby in Michigan gear.
October 17th, 2015 at 9:16 PM ^
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Well, I hope you won't ever forget or question--that outside of these hyped-up sporting events and all the ups and downs that come with it--that you have tremendous worth. Not just to the Michigan Sports community, but to humanity at large. We'd much rather have you with us than any sort of "win," or banner.
I can't rightly say that I hope that you double-down on Michigan because, I'd rather you double-down on life and all it's wonderment, and come to know only tremendous happiness throughout your years, outside of athletics.
Whenever life feels out of control, know that you can weather any storm my good fellow. Know you have great worth and tremendous value; owning zero to the outcome of sporting events.
Blessings.
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Having children, caring about them, loving them - It's the first thing that has come anywhere close to helping me put sports closer to in perspective.
I was out with them at AAGOC today, walking around collecting cans for scouting - It was awesome to see all these folks having fun, loving Michigan football and having a good time. I believed Michigan would win, and was looking forward to lovingly watching every minute on the DVR.
We were driving home after doing the can return, and my wife put the game on (without thinking about it). Michigan was lining up for the punt that wasn't..
After it happened, all the joy and fun of the day vanished in an instant. Just gone. I sat there in the drivers seat, trying desperately not to scream or yell or pound the steering wheel.
Over the next 10 minutes, hearing the kids react (or not react, with the 6 year old, who just kinda kept singing the Victors) in a reasonable way (Oh, Michigan lost! That's such a bummer! He messed up that kick? How awful. Hey, lets talk about Legos! :) ) brought me back to earth a bit.
15 years ago, I would have been a wreck for a week. Now I can think about it without wanting to punch the wall after only a matter of hours. It's not that I don't care. I care MORE now, since I know so much more about Michigan football from this blog. It's just that I care about other stuff too, in a way I didn't before. Even when they are annoying, they help - Maybe even moreso then..
Rob
October 17th, 2015 at 11:11 PM ^
So my wife and kids are out of town. I called my wife when the... thing... happened. She put my son on the phone. And in his girly little 5 year old voice he yelled "I'm so MAD that Michigan lost!"
Keep in mind that we are in metro-Columbus and that everyone in his life except for me is trying to get him to be an OSU fan.
How do you process that? Pride? Shame? Pride? It made me sad to hear and I don't know specifically why.
October 17th, 2015 at 11:28 PM ^
But I guess that whether they are acting well or annoying, or it's something frustrating about parenting them, my reaction to what they do is better than that awful, dark, abysmal, COMPLETELY out of proportion reaction. Nothing else seems to work the same for me.
Rob
October 17th, 2015 at 11:44 PM ^
It is unnerving when we realize we've burdened our kids with this sickness we all share. After today's game, my five year old daughter immediately ran over to start consoling me and telling me it was going to be all right. I was simultaneoustly marveling at her empathy and embarassed at myself for having reacted in such a way that she would feel a need to do that.
October 17th, 2015 at 9:05 PM ^
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October 17th, 2015 at 8:54 PM ^
The reason we care so much is for our love of the University (alum or otherwise). Like everything in life, sometimes you need to experience the lows to appreciate the highs. Cheer up, our program is going the right direction. The future is bright.
October 17th, 2015 at 9:08 PM ^
I became a fan because the doctor that my mom work for was an alumn. He was a season ticket holder and would give me a set of tickets each year. I've loved Michigan for as long as I can remember, but have no affiliation to the University.
Sometimes I wish I didn't care so much. I can's help it.
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My thinking actually started to shift in the direction that the OP talks about after The Horror - I tend to credit that game and my overreaction to it back then as the game that started me down a more philosophical, introspective approach to fandom. I spent weeks trying to compartmentalize that particular loss, especially because all my years of being a Michigan fan before that didn't allow for such things to happen.
The Dennis Dixon show after that didn't help either. September 2007 was a long, painful month, and I began to find ways to keep one foot in the moment but one foot in the world, ways to frame games, win or loss, in better way. I took that step back and learned ways to be a highly engaged fan but to be able to not drain myself doing it - besides, I was starting a family by then and I didn't want my kids to see those histrionics.
October 17th, 2015 at 9:02 PM ^
Sometimes I wish that I wasn't so emotionally involved. The last 7 years have been quite painful. I was as much of a fan then as I am now. It sucks right now because, for the majority of our lives Michigan has been very good. They have not been so the last 7 years. Things will return to normal.
This one really stings. But this SHOULD HAVE BEEN A WIN. None of us will see a game end like this again in our lifetime. As much as this one stings, things are looking up.
October 17th, 2015 at 9:08 PM ^
The last few years have tought me to be pretty zen about the whole thing, not too long ago I created a thread exactly like this one actually. Things like this happen in sports. You need to find a way to appreciate and enjoy the good while understanding that the bad doesn't need to ruin your week.
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You are right. I remember when we lost to App State and I just thought, "Why do I put myself through this". Now life sucks for 30 minutes to an hour and I'm fine. I used to beat myself up all weekend and in some cases, all week.